just finish work and i injured my feet once more while on the move. nvm. fuck it. i got a confession to make to you. listen up. i can't lie the moment i see you again, my heart jumps with ultimate joy. one kind of happiness i nvr felt in a long time. i miss you damn badly. i wanna hug you and wouldnt let go, but i'm afraid i'll scare you away forever. so i stop myself. but the moment you hug me, i felt so relieved, like a fucking heavy burden being lifted off me. i miss your touch. i miss your voice. but most of all, i miss you. it has been long since i last saw you. i dun deny every single fucking sec i think about you. People told me to just forget about it and move on with life and find anotha guy. Like you used to say, talk is easy. To do it is just so damn fucking hard. Especially when no one reali reali understand what you're going thru and what you're feeling.. Remember last night i ask how's life? And you answered, fucked up. And i ask you to tell me about it? Yah, life has been fucked up for me too.. guess this is how my life is sapose to be.. at the very most, i can't believe its gonna end very soon.. you shud noe what i'm talking about.. i try and try to push myself to the very limits.. even though my head hurts like fuck, i ignore it and continued on.. you used to say im a strong girl.. And i wanna show the world that i can be strong, even in the last bits of my life now.. things change.. not people.. trust me, my life has been plunging downwards ever since then.. i smile, joke and laugh every single day to make other people's day.. but onie you managed to make my day last night when we met.. Honestly, i still want you back here with me.. But i noe you rather not.. i dun wanna you to suffer more than you have been when with me.. so what the fuck.. i'm leaving soon aniwae.. life dun give a shit about anybody.. and as you businessmen say, time dun wait for anione.. so yah.. what the fuck.. days are numbered to the major day.. time is running out.. before i leave i wanna let you noe i still love you alot like i have been.. its not a lie being made up.. like the title of this entry says, i'm here to confess.. i can't lie and i won't lie about how i feel.. you shud noe me by now. i dun play with matters of the heart.. all i wanna you do now is take good care of yourself.. and hope for the best.. if ladyluck is by me, i guess i will survive.. but i can't be so sure can i? so, take good care of yourself and of coz the BK. as you love to say, be good. dun take drugs. shasha signing out. muackz.. shasha. 01 05hours. 180608. confessions outlawed. ps i love you.
the path i've chosen ;
9:46 AM
IN LOVE WITH U
Smaragdos Calendula
29May1989 <3
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Mail me at : ladyinblack1602@yahoo.com.sg or sayang_shasha@hotmail.com
[MY SPECIAL LOVE]
Junior a.k.a Akid <3
Notes from the heart
in whatever ways u take, i still choose a different path..
in whatever speeches you said, i still be the opposition..
in whatever ways u react, i still react differently..
but amongst all the things i might be able to say,
i can't lie that I LOVE YOU.
Before, now and forever after.
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I won't budge anymore. Enough is enough. You've created enough breakage in my life. You've shattered my dreams. You've destroyed my happiness. And i sure as hell know you're with someone new out there. You can try to lie, but you know that i know all about it. So good luck in trying yeah. :)
