ok ok.. its been quite sometime since i last updated... first of all, to Kak Budd: How the hell did you get my blog url? I lost urs noe.. walao... anw, i still do remember u la... u my dearest kakak sey... how can forget...? thanks for not forgetting me... my boyfren still in there... jux got in back there... he was out for a week ar... Hospitalised... was there with him all the while when hez hospitalised... kak, hes so big in size n ure telling me u tak nampak dia? wat the hell.. u mux be kidding sak kak... anw, take care... miss ya loads... yah, as u all haf read ma msg to Kak Budd, he was hospitalised... on the 09 Jan 07.. Heart stopped, collapsed, n lungs contraction... the part of to what reali freak me out was when we (me and jack) was on our way to send him to hospital in the bus, he collapse right in front of me... i was so super panicky sak.. Jack was asleep and i couldnt move coz he collapse in my arms n his muscles all relax n he began to be very heavy.. luckily my brain did not stop sak... i can still manage to think.. i tried to wake him up... calling his name, tapping his head of to where my fingers can reach... try to even move him... Finally he woke up... wah... reali scare the living daylights out of me... i asked if he was ok... he said no.. i check for his pulse but couldnt find any beats... i start to panic again.. but i told myself to calm down...the whole incident jux freaks me out... i thot i was going to lose him sak... thank god hes still alive... i stayed with him throughout... watch over him as he sleep, be with him when he having observations, even when hes eating.... the security guard so called mengalau me out of there ar... but coz he made me promise him that i will not leave his side, i ignored the security guard n the nurses... was there throughout... i kept ma promise... was there with him when hes feeling reali down... heyz, wadya expect, hes human too.. haf feelings too... the 2nd night, my family came down to visit him... they brought me my change of clothes n toiletries... Before they came, hours before that, me n him was sitting on his bed, chatting the time away... suddenly got this guy come with a basket of 'get well soon' flowers n fruits... it came from the HTA (home team academy).. the commander sent it.. hehe... it kinda did brightened up his day there... i left with my family when they went off... he told me to go home as i was aredi having high fever... he asked me go home and rest... tho i noe he dun wan me to go, i followed wat he ask me to do... the very next day, he was discharged... he went home to Kak Julie's house... chatted with him on msn... with the webcam on... cheered him up... n went to rest... he came over the next day and spent the rest of his mc days at my house... he says its his turn to take care of me wen im sick... and that he wants to take care of me like how i took care of him... and that he jux wanna be with me... hes being swit... he did took care of me n was with me all along... i lost my voice thanks to the lack of nicotine... reali lost ma voice of to i reali can't speak aredi... was tortured by being asked to drink asam water... EEEEEWWWW...!! Mon buat aku leh telan.. Umie buat aku tak leh telan sak..!! Umie make me drink the asam water she make, till my lips turn extreme pale n makes me reali going to collapse due to high dosage of salt in it... wat the hell...!! but it makes me able to talk ar... abit onie... can talk but very very soft... like squeaks... wat the hell... the 3rd time they make me drink that water... but this time little salt dosage... able to telan it all in 3 big forced gulps... now recovering slowly... got voice aredi... but abit rough ar... with all the coughing and phlegm.. it makes everything worst... but still can take it... B, i miss you sak.. hope everything is okay in there for you ever since you came back... hope to see you this weekend.... love ya.. muackz... -shasha logging out- -9.19pm-15jan07- happy advance 11months anniversary to you baby.... i love you alot.. muackz.. muackz... muackz... muackz...
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IN LOVE WITH U
Smaragdos Calendula
29May1989 <3
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[MY SPECIAL LOVE]
Junior a.k.a Akid <3
Notes from the heart
in whatever ways u take, i still choose a different path..
in whatever speeches you said, i still be the opposition..
in whatever ways u react, i still react differently..
but amongst all the things i might be able to say,
i can't lie that I LOVE YOU.
Before, now and forever after.
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