the loss of mood.. the flashbacks of total hurt... the tears of pain.. why is all of this happening..?? why are they disturbing us...?? Do they need me to give them a fucking new hobby...?? for god's sake, stop doing all this shit.. you know its a sin to do all this.. why are you still on your stand to destroy my life..? why are you still standing proud that you are destroying ohter people's life to get what you want...?? seriously, im guessing you bitches don't have a better hobby to do..?? need me get one for you...?? i sure as hell can find one for you.. the perfect one... Singapore should make murder legal with you bitches around... what the hell... (to anybody reading this, its jux a way of putting my werds.. not meaning to reali make murder legal.. siow ar..?!!) seriouly i feel like killing you bitches aredi... FOR THE I DUNO HOW MANY MILLION TIMES, STOP DISTURBING MY FAMILY..!!!!!! How long more am i sapose to face all this shit...?? How long more is ma family sapose to suffer bcoz of them...?? How long more are they gonna disturb people i love and care...?? What did they do to deserve this...?? I hate people who planned out my future using **********..!! i hate them alot..!! Fuck them..!! haix.... i had a tough battle yesterday... i was totally wipe out... too tired... can't breathe... i won but i lose... haix.. how long more is it to the end of the battle...?? haix... i can't hold on anymore.. i can't cling on any longer... im weaker by the day... i dun wana quit this war... i've been in it from the start.. why quit now..?? even if i haf to die, i noe i die happy and proud coz i help in this war... haix... i woke up late today.. ard noon... umie wake me up... i feel so tired... so super lazy to move around... so i jux lay in bed till around 2pm.. den go bath and had something to eat to regain ma stamina... damn irritating... i waited for his msg all night... and i receive none... macam budak bodoh sak tunggu..!! wasn't in the mood the whole day... so i lock myself in ma room... look thru books... diaries to be exact... as i read back all the contents... it hurts me pretty much... i went thru alot of shit... i've been lied to, hurt and angered... but im still holding on... coz i love him so... haix.. why did she even step into the picture tat day...?? if it wasnt for her, i wouldnt be soo hurt back then... alot of times i tried to end this life of mine.. but stopped by him... i was grateful im still alive now... coz its ma turn to live life how i want it to be... tears keep wanting to flow... but i remained strong.. why the hell i cry over spilled milk..?? useless sak.. looking forward for the upcoming future... i'm owas ready to take on challenges... -shasha- -9.14pm- -281206- *i gotta admit i miss u dear. but u aint here.*
the path i've chosen ;
5:26 AM
IN LOVE WITH U
Smaragdos Calendula
29May1989 <3
wants: Class 2B/3 license
Mail me at : ladyinblack1602@yahoo.com.sg or sayang_shasha@hotmail.com
[MY SPECIAL LOVE]
Junior a.k.a Akid <3
Notes from the heart
in whatever ways u take, i still choose a different path..
in whatever speeches you said, i still be the opposition..
in whatever ways u react, i still react differently..
but amongst all the things i might be able to say,
i can't lie that I LOVE YOU.
Before, now and forever after.
6th June ~ BKUK 2nd Bdae
8th June ~ Iraah Baby Bdae
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I won't budge anymore. Enough is enough. You've created enough breakage in my life. You've shattered my dreams. You've destroyed my happiness. And i sure as hell know you're with someone new out there. You can try to lie, but you know that i know all about it. So good luck in trying yeah. :)
