where are you my dear lover...? where have you gone to...? thru out the nitez i slept thru... i owas think of you... where have you been...? why did you leave me...? all this i dun understand... why are you doing this...? can you tell me...?
tell me watz going on... tell me wat am i sapoze to noe... why am i feeling so alone...? why aren't you here...? like you said you would...
why am i so complicated...? why am i so sad...? why am i so afraid...?why did you do this to me...? why...? why...? why...?
i feel so alone... tho you might be sitting beside me or with me... you are just not here... your mind, your heart and your soul are all not here... so sorie but i got to say it here and now.. you're here but you're so far away... i dun understand... you said you would be here for me... you said you wanna spend time together with me...
what is all that sapose to be...? empty promises again...? why isit owas me who have to face this obstacles again...? why isit owas me who have to face it all alone...? why...? can you answer that for me...?? no you can't...!!!
i just hate ma life... i hate the way things are right now... i hate my lies i said to you... i hate myself for lying to you... i hate your empty promises... i hate all those fake hopes you gave to me... i hate myself... hate my life... i dun wanna live animore... dun wanna lie animore... dun wanna suffer animore pain... dun wanna take animore medications...
im sorie i wasn't good enuf for you... im sorie i wasn't honest with you... im sorie for lying to you... im sorie for disturbing you.. im sorie for forcing you to do things that you dun wan... im sorie for doing things that hurt you... im sorie for hurting you... im sorie for forcing you to adapt to ma stupid behaviour... im sorie for everything... hope you forgive me...
i dun wan you to look for me... im jux anotha pathetic girl-next-door... im not special... im not clever.. leave me alone... im sorie if you made a big mistake in choosing me...
tmr is the day my xray results are out... gonna take it and leave... may things fall into place without me around...
take care my frenz... take care my loved ones...
take care monster... tho you might not noe, lemme jux tell you.. i love you alot... nothing gonna change that... you're ma first... and you're ma last too... without you life was a disaster... i thank you for entering ma life and made a whole lot of difference... thanks alot... i totali appreciate it... truly... heyz... learn to take care of yourself... stay healthy kkz... all the best in everything... love ya.. muackz..
ps: i miss you alot... but you jux didnt care... i hope you will be done with your busy-nez soon... take care sweetie...
to everyone, forgive me if i have made any mistakes that tends to hurt anybody... forgive me...
5.13pm 121106 [song listening to: different]
the path i've chosen ;
1:30 AM
IN LOVE WITH U
Smaragdos Calendula
29May1989 <3
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Mail me at : ladyinblack1602@yahoo.com.sg or sayang_shasha@hotmail.com
[MY SPECIAL LOVE]
Junior a.k.a Akid <3
Notes from the heart
in whatever ways u take, i still choose a different path..
in whatever speeches you said, i still be the opposition..
in whatever ways u react, i still react differently..
but amongst all the things i might be able to say,
i can't lie that I LOVE YOU.
Before, now and forever after.
6th June ~ BKUK 2nd Bdae
8th June ~ Iraah Baby Bdae
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I won't budge anymore. Enough is enough. You've created enough breakage in my life. You've shattered my dreams. You've destroyed my happiness. And i sure as hell know you're with someone new out there. You can try to lie, but you know that i know all about it. So good luck in trying yeah. :)
