todae i cheer myself up.. telling myself everything's ok.. everything's gonna be fine.. yep.. it will be.. i was pretty tired when i went to school.. but i try not to reali show it.. went to scul with zura, wan, itik, zulaiha n naq.. (naq was actuali walking past, but guez he slowed down to walk with wan..) i wasn't thinking straight all day.. i was missing him alot.. alot.. haiz.. but i sure hope everything's okae... went to OA and as usual i got nothing to do.. so there i am slacking around.. went online on msn but not chatting with anione.. Chitra darlink was bz doin finishing touches on her powerpoint presentation.. so didnt disturb her.. Naq sat with wan n hao jie.. which is actuali right behind me.. so its pretty noisy.. but wat the heck aite.. they're having fun playing games online.. my mind wasn't exactly with me all day.. it floats away.. i kept on thinking about him.. i reali miss him.. alot.. well.. haiz.. nvm.. i sat at ma place and try to cheer myself up.. den he msg me asking if i am online.. i said yep.. wen he reach home, he went online and open conversation wimme.. since i got nothing to do, i might as well chat with him since i miss him so much.. so there i sat chatting away.. easing bit by bit of my rindunez.. hehe.. told him i will be presenting my project todae.. He said "u can do it.. u're the best.. i noe u r".. i thanked him for the support.. well.. things wasnt wat i expected ar.. its ma turn to present.. i open to my first slide of ma project.. i start to talk.. but each time i talk, she interupts.. i talk, she interupts.. wat the fuck.. i was aredi pissed.. but kept ma cool.. it was until she kip on flipping the pages of ma slides handouts and kept asking me to "next".. lagi worst, i was presenting abt the financial profile and she ask me to hurry up and end the freaking presentation.. i mean, wat the fuck..? i put ma heart and soul in this freaking project and ma presentation is barely 5 mins.. i didnt even get the chance to present properly.. what the hell.. i was freaking pissed sak.. reali.. went to ma sit, packed ma stuff and talk to him.. was about to breakdown but manage to hold back.. coz i made a promise... so i didnt.. sial ar.. my hardwerk sak that project.. i was reali enthusiatic about the project... i went to details of every info i put in ma project.. and submitted once i finished everything.. den when it comes to presentation? sial ar.. fucked up sia... i was reali reali reali heartbroken siak.. reali.. haiz.. im never gonna do anotha project so nicely done and with ma sweat and hardwerk again.. fuck it.. she reali noe how to destroy ma interest... haiz.. i reali got nothing to say.. i wanna represent but.... haiz.. forget it.. shez jux gonna do the same freaking thing again.. i kinda blew ma top off.. but afta lunch i cooled down aredi.. was okae aredi.. during accounting i was like persuading wan, hao jie, kelvin and sophian to go snw... and they kip goin like "duno.. see first la.." walao.. guys.. freaking stubborn.. and not to forget lazy too.. haha.. kidding.. but finally they agreed to go.. walao.. make me tired onie persuade til accounts finish... played badminton with them... 3 against 2 game... very funny.. i partner with hao jie.. super funny.. alot alot of stupid stupid actions and incidents.. we kept on laughing... til stomach muscle tense up.. haha.. wan suddenly burst out laughing for no reason which made me burst out laughing too.. haha.. crazee.. but overall... it was fun being with the guys.. freaking funny.. made me laugh ma heart out.. thankiew guys.. reali cheer me up.. haha... shasha signing out... [song listening to: her ghost in the fog - cradle of filth] 070906 8.15pm
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Smaragdos Calendula
29May1989 <3
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[MY SPECIAL LOVE]
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Notes from the heart
in whatever ways u take, i still choose a different path..
in whatever speeches you said, i still be the opposition..
in whatever ways u react, i still react differently..
but amongst all the things i might be able to say,
i can't lie that I LOVE YOU.
Before, now and forever after.
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