Wednesday, August 30, 2006
[...changes & past...]
yeah..!! Lets turn up the techno people...!! haha... techno time..!![song title: smoke machine]haha.. i noe this sounds funny but lets turn up the volume to the techno people.. time to ease your stress and relax your mind..lets see... today's a great day... well not so great ar.. but on average.. yeah, its okae.. i kinda sprained my back.. and the pain is like killing me.. Yesterday as i lie down in bed, i reali couldnt move my body at all.. the onie ones moving are my eyes and my thumb.. to read and reply messages.. my spine hurts like hell.. todae thot didnt wanna go scul.. but coz daya is performing, i came to show my support.. shez great.. but i decided to skip lessons coz i really cannot take the pain anymore.. im trying my best to bear with the pain.. but its jux unbearable.. even now as im sitting down to update this freaking blog of mine, im bearing with the pain.. the pain which became unbearable as every minutes past.. haix... i told fairuz yesterday i can cry sak coz it reali hurtz like hell and i reali cannot take it.. but nevermind..something that happen jux now in the afternoon reminds me of a so called poem that i wrote down years ago.. but if it doesnt rhyme at certain times, paiseh hor.. its like way back when i wrote it.. it goes this way..-without you-
here i am all alone
lonely and freezing cold
waiting for you to come
to accompany me thru the day
but you never came down as i sat here waiting away.
as i sat here cold and freezing
i try to bear with the pain in me
the pain of which made me cry
not tears of hurt or anger
neither it is tears of sadness nor joy
but its the tears of endless pain
that i never wanted it to come.
baby i need you here and now
but you never came
my heart shattered to a million pieces
like being hit by a sledge hammer
feel so heartbroken
but nobody saw it thru.
i packed my things and start to go
and all you could say is sorry
i dun understand why
but you tried to explain yourself
when i told you not to
but now i understand why
indeed i do
thanks alot for trying to explain things out
i appreciate your effort
im sorry for being harsh upon you.
but right now, i jux feel like dying
coz im so lonely and cold
lonely and cold
without you baby.
baby, i knoe tis kinda hurt you when you read tis.. but its a total coincidence that what happen this afternoon and what i wrote years back.. that i wrote for someone.. but this stupid poetry is NOT for you.. seriously.. im sorry for everything baby.. i truly am sorry..
love you alot baby..
muackz..
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