[...tanx girlz...]
first of all, lemme reply to ur tagz...

yanNur: yep.. got it.. thankz girl.. u're sweet..


Zura: thankz sis.. tat was what im hoping to... tat she'll go away... well... let time heal the wounds... thankz sis...

next, herez ma entry for today...

it wasnt what i expected... true enuf she created that sparks to be a fire that run wild... but nevermind, i can still be patient.. onie to a certain extent ar... shez like pressuring me to squeeze the trigger of the gun im holding when she knew that the gun im holding is pointed to her direction and at her.. what a stupid thing to do.. pushing her luck too far...

she brought so much pain in ma life.. how i wished she didnt join our group.. how i wished she didnt knoe me, him, wal and jack.. ever since then, shez the cause of our fightz and quarellz.. for four fucking months i kept my mouth sealed shut.. thot she would go away.. but i was wrong.. she didnt.. can somebody please come and tell me what to do... im soo at loss now.. i duno what to do.. all i noe is that i must save this relationship of mine.. no matter what.. it mean alot to me to just let it crash down just like that... therez no way im going to do that.. haix.. i nid that strength to carry on and pull myself together and think of ways to stop this shit..

i haven told ma elder sis about this.. if she ever found out about this shit, she'll sure to blow up and find that bitch.. i will tell her tonight.. i guess.. but i'll sure to tell her...

i can't tell ma soul sista... between me and her got some probs that needs to be settled... we're not on talking terms.. this sux.. sis, if you're reading ma blog, good enuf.. we've been sistaz for almost 12 years now.. we pronounced sistaz when we're 9.. what happen to our sistaz bondship..? why do you want it to crash just like that..? if you remembered, this isn't the first time we fight.. and this as hell wasn't the first time we're not on talking terms.. come sis.. talk to me.. letz settle this shit out.. we'll stop this shit once and for all.. i had enuf of our disagreementz.. coz when therez 'hal' to settle, i can't seem to contact you.. wen we need you here to settle stuffz, you're jux not here.. talk to me.. we stop this disagreement..

ma broz have yet to knoe.. i dun want them to knoe.. its something that they shouldnt noe coz itz ma personal life space.. but all i noe, even without me telling them, one fine day when they come back to the group, they'll sure as hell noe about it.. nevermind, let them find out themselves.. all i noe by the time they noe about it, itz aredi settled.. i hope..

haix.. i'll stop here for now.. i'll update later..

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...[07 july 06]...