[...fucked up...]
i duno what to say... i duno what to do... i duno what am i sapoze to be feeling rite now... emotions all mixed up... but all i noe is that im feeling this rite noe... :

super pissed + super frustrated + super duper heartbroken + super stressed = feeling very very fucked up....

what am i to do baby...? tell me... how long more am i sapoze to shut up and jux look at the fucking situation... how long more should i cool off my anger...? how long more must i shut up to see her do stupid shit to my relationship...? how long more should i shut up and see her getting more obsessed with you as the days passed...? tell me baby... im seriously stressed up.. i duno what to do...

recently, i've been feeling super freaking pissed... for no reason im reali reali pissed... little stuffz can trigger my bomb off... some people haf seen me very very very quiet lately... even some asked me whatz wrong... all i noe, im reali pissed...

im super duper heartbroken... why...? dun ask me why B... ask yourself of to why am i feeling tat way... yes i noe, u never play punk wen you reali start to love someone... n i noe you aren't playing punk wif me... but think B.. why the sudden contact of your old crush...? you n i knoe she still loves you... i duno about you... mayb what i think its true, maybe not... Why still layankan when you noe you sayang me...? Fuck you lah B.. i had enuf of lies... its either them or me...

them... why i said them... its not onie her, your old crush... its her, your 'queen'... n her, tat fucking bitch whom you CALLED 'ma baby'... n her, your ex... n her, your admirer... n her, your 'fren'... n i duno how long the list is goin to be... think B.... think... put your fucking brain to werk... put yourself in my shoes.. feel how i feel... sense how heartbroken i am rite now.. yes, im smiling.. yes, im laughing... but do you think im reali smiling n laughing inside...?? NO...!! im NOT...!! Fuck you lah B.. i had enuf.. its time i made my decision n do what i haf to do...

its either they fuck off, or it'll be me... you are the one who said it to me yesterday that you dun want me to go away... then make your fucking decision....! think...! use your fucking brain...

argh...!!!!!!!!!

[...07 june 06...]
...[8.46pm]...